Monday, February 28, 2011

Patient


Today, I learn about patient. Man sabara zafira, orang yang sabar akan beruntung (dari buku ranah 3 warna, pinjem ya Pak). Tapi saya bilang orang sabar memang beruntung, bukan cuma akan. So, people whose patient is people whose very lucky because Allah prepare big presents for patient people (I always said that to Dinda and Awee, and I remember Awee always laugh and said, yes Erlin, you are right, a big present is waiting for you; Awee said that for teasing me and make me happy; but really I am happy)
Maybe I am the one whose naive. In lunch time, I asked permission to go to BCA to pay indovision....Astaghfirullah, I met two people whose very rude and in hurry. Hey guys, you live in jakarta, which is in monday, you will meet a long line in the bank (what happen you?)
First person is very very rude. She spoke un politely with security. maybe she underestimate the security....(Ya Allah, You create all of people with same pride, what happen with this lady? you can't live if we don't have security) . I came after the lady, I just behind her. I saw the security spoke with other man, and the lady just ask immediately, where is to print the savings books? Of course the security can't answer. after finish talking with the man, the security ask the lady,'what do you want mam?' and the lady answer with high voice, 'next time listen if people said something!' maybe the eye of the lady has some trouble...he he he ;) She can't see that the security still speaking with other man...poor lady because the security and other man stand up in front of the lady, even I whose stand behind the lady can see what happen in that time. I said with very politely that I want to print my saving book and the security took my book. See, everything is fine if you are patient. :)
After finish print the book, the lady still said rude with the security when she asked about the cash deposit machine that still broken, and the security just ask pardon Mam (he asked the lady to said the question again) but the lady show angry face and just go...Astaghfirullah.
After that I paid my bills and I have to take line too, there is another lady behind me whose is very very in hurry, look angry because she said she has to do another things (next time lady, come in the early morning at 9 am, there is no line in atm, ck ck ck)....Ya Allah, the time is running away but I don't want time kill my patient.....ya Allah make me to be a good muslimah. amin.
I Love You, Allah. Please always remind me. Amin

Monday, Februari 28, 2011.

Friday, February 25, 2011

Money and salary


Usually yesterday in the evening I have received my salary. Now I am not yet received my salary, even one of my friends said that new employee will not get salary because new employee equal with honorary employee :(. so our salary????? hmm no one know it.
Am I complain? No, I can't complain. as long as I life, Allah SWT give blessing to me. So, let's live with my saving...hua hua :D. Lets laughing our condition (Mr. Jaya said, 'If We are hard to ourselves, the world are too easy for us'.)
My advise is never complain about your salary or your money because you don't know what will you get later...okay, remember what I said... ;)
Hmmmm, anyone can guess how much my salary?? I don't care how much my salary, I just try to enjoy my life now, I just try to love everything I do...(sigh) Oh God, why so difficult to make my parents happy without let go my dream? OH, I already complain again....Sorry God. Ya Allah Ya Robbi, please help me to fulfill my dreams and make my parents happy. YES. AMIN.
And, I have another question, anyone can guess when will I get my salary?...he he, can you guess it?
Money will come to you if you work hard...I hope not just only money come to me but also happiness come to me. YEAH... :D. AMIN
NB : Tomorrow, I have to teach my students. My students must come at 8 am, if they don't come at 8 am, I will go to Bara house, remember that my students...hi hi hi (giggling)
Thats my notes..will I add this notes? maybe.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

I miss to teach



Lovely my new office...:) really??? This picture I took in my desk with the background is my boss (chief of Sub Director) office.
So, everyone can see that my desk exactly in front of my boss office. Wkwkwkwkwkwkwk......Allah SWT is very nice, remind me to work, not to play, right... :). Amin.
Move to new place/new job is very hard, especially if the new job is very very different with my last job. Teaching, I have been teaching for 7 years, and I think that is my life, even until now I think that I am still teaching. That's why I am still accept to give private tutoring to some students in Tugasku. I feel I can't let go my students...I feel jealous that I can't teach my students again...I feel so devastated. I always pray to Allah SWT that I hope I can still teaching even I work in DIKTI.
It is not about money or safety. Some people think that be a government employee is comfortable, because we get retired money, it is more safety etc. But for me, it is not about that reason.
My father want me to be a government employee which more safety. For this new job, I let go some of my plans/dreams.
And I feel very surprise with the new job in DIKTI . I feel not comfortable with the habit of time works. How can people start work at 9 am and go home at 7 pm or 9 pm? If you come in the morning and finish job from the beginning so you don't have go home late, right? but that's the habit here, why? Because in DIKTI, people have to make some rules for all of universities in Indonesia, so we have to invite lectures and discuss about the rules. We have to invite lectures (great lectures whose are very clever, concern about education, etc) from around Indonesia, so we have to waiting the lectures. They want to have meeting after they finish teach. They are good lectures, right? They are still thinking about their students. hmmmmm,......Allah SWT teach me again how to be patient.
Lot of things that I have to learn here, and I know it. I put my heart in this works so I can love this works, but my passion and my love for teaching is still in my mind.
So, I ask to my self, what activity actually that I want? but I remember, Allah SWT give the best for me, not what I want, because Allah SWT know what is the best for me sometimes not the ones I want.
I still remember how I want to get Japan scholarship but I failed and Allah SWT give other scholarship that was went to USA, thats the one better for me. And Allah SWT is right, Allah SWT give me good friends (a lot of good friends) and very wonderful memories. I learn a lot of things in USA.
I sent scholarship application to Australia last year but I failed and Allah SWT give me new job to be government employee that I know a lot of people want my new job....See how lucky I am and how very very GREAT ALLAH SWT. Amin.
I know how lucky I am..:) I am just greedy and want more from Allah SWT...Am I wrong? I am still human whose love to complain and feel not enough.....ha ha ha :D. But it is not about money.
I just still want love from my students....I still love teaching and I happy Allah SWT still allow me to still teaching my students. Even I have to fight with the time....time is not in my side (my feeling) now. Jakarta looks like want to eat me with the traffic jam.
I go home from my office already late and I still have to give private tutoring and I have to take 2.5 hours to get my students house. Again.....it is not about money, it is about my passion to teach, I feel like I am useful person if my students get high score because I teach them. if I think about money, actually money that I get from private tutoring just for cover the transport. Not enough for foods and the sore and aching of my body. It is not worthy if I count with money. BUT IT IS WORTHY with my feeling and my PASSION to make good next generation (candidate of my next leader, right? I always believe that I am teaching my next leader because my students will grow up and be better person to lead Indonesia..Bravo)
Activity? Which activity that I love? Very hard for me to choice to make happy my parents or do what I love.
Allah SWT guide me to do the best even I feel so tired because I go home late, even sometimes I feel scared to go home late but I know I have Allah SWT beside me. Amin.
MY STUDENTS remind me as a good teacher, okay? I ALWAYS LOVE YOU....I HOPE YOU ALWAYS SUCCESS.
Today I use clothes which 9B gave to me. Love you, my students. Can you see it 9B?

Thursday, February 03, 2011

Me..without teaching?????

Start on february 1, 2011, I resign from Tugasku Junior high school and work on Dikti.
I have 2 days briefing on February 1 and 2, 2011, in my new office.
I don't know I like my new office or no, I know a lot of people want to be PNS (government employee), so I am so lucky.
But, I really really miss my students....really really miss them a lot.
Usually I teach my students but I can't imagine I just work with paper and computer.
The funny thing, I always sleep on the bus if I went to Tugasku but now, I can't sleep because I always stand up in the bus trans jakarta......I can't do my hobby again (sleep on the bus)..ha ha ha :D
Nadine said," my blood transportation will be okay, and I will be health".
Lala, my sister said,"Because you sleep a lot, so Allah SWT make you wake up now".( lu sih banyakan tidur, makanya Allah kasih lu melek terus)
Nadine and Lala are right...ha ha :D
I want to be upset but I know maybe it is time to me to learn something new...but I feel I can't life without teaching...so anyone can help me...what must I do????????